holidays are finally here.

no more exams

no more assignments

no more stress

but somehow i know this will not last

i still have to study this holidays i guess.=(

but my lazy bum is real lazy to get up n going.

been watching ''xia yi zhan xing fu'' this few days..

super nice.

anyways,i feel like saying something.

people come n go

but feelings and the truth will last forver

its a wonder how people change in less than a month time

more n more secrets hidden

no more sharing

no more spontaneous outings

well maybe still..some..once in a while.

but it doesn't feel the same.

first year without something which may not seem to be anything important to others.

but it is to me.

its okay.

maybe ur busy

but it makes me feel forgotten,

used

and not appreaciated.

thought we were best of friends.

i hope we still are.

i do miss you.

please come back

and i dont like that fella.

sorry but yea..too bossy..

grr..go away.

i used to have this super duper good gf.

well it was my first n the best

we grew apart

she left because she got scholarship.

=(

we call each other everyday

she tells me she miss me

n she loves me

comes to my hse

teach me to ride a bike(which i still don't know how)

watch movie with my family

laugh with me

always there for me when i needed someone

hugs me all the time

my fault.

i didn't know how to appreciate her.

my mistake

no use crying over spilled milk

but i still think about those times.

wonder if she does too.

(call me lesbian, but she's still the best)

its been a long time since i've been here.
its currently 1.59am. couldnt do my maths.
mid terms are next week
i wish people knew how i feel.
how i am.
how i truly am.
do you even care?
do you still mind me being sad?
i hate to beg for ur sympathy.

days pass by so fast.
can't believe this is how it would end.
i really miss those times.
u changed.
not me.
but instead i am the one suffering.
living in the pass memories i may be...
but at least i know i am right.
i am real.
i am not to be questioned.
blamed.
shouted at.
especially in public.
i have feelings too.

CAN U HEAR ME.
I HAVE FEELINGS.
i am not cold blooded like you. and i will never be.
i still care.


i wish upon the stars tonight.
i will be happy again.
but i will not forget you.
nor forgive what u did.
i want u to undo ur mistake
i'll wait.


please don't hurt me on my birthday.
u promised.
i believe you.
i still do.