LOVE

its been a long time since i last wrote a blog post well yeah
since i have so much time now i think i should revive it once in a while.
thinking of starting all over again but oh wells,
first n foremost!

I GRADUATED SAM! aka expresshellcourse! ;D
i am proud of myself, proud tht i can endure all these nonsense in these 11 months, although i will not take SAM anymore but yeahh its a great experience!

never would i thought tht i would hv all girl classmates for the whole year.
well, its me laa sorry. haha joee without boys is like winnie the pooh without hunny n like popeye without spinach! but yeah i survived! n its not all bad! i've became a lesbian i think haha

became slightly more girlish, noisy, crazy, MADLY SS, not so rough i think haha.
n all my classmates are so shortt! all the tiny people are grouped together in G2! oh well, we're all good. n i love all of YOU! aww.. aren't u all touched? better say u love me when y'all see me. im hot thank you LOL.

yee yin ( the cute one. always ding zhui with me. grr (: )

yee ling ( smart n funny n has a bf haha )

yi qian ( not as quiet as you think, she knows how to talk n pls eat more!!! )

sharon ( u surprise me with everything u are abt to answer, u are special! )

sue teng ( always taking care of us, wouldn't know hw i'll be without you, loves)

amelia (great genting planner, n notti girl so many guys haha )

randy ( the only guy left, ur a great guy )

tsui ling (we used to talk more last time, aww i'll miss you girl)

sheng nee ( having tht dai ga jie look, the person whom i can click with the beginning of the year)

sutha ( darling, i miss youu hahha. u super talkative n gelabah weyhh )

mei yi (super smart girl who has very funny words at times in class, stay smart n beat all the guys out there! )

wee ru ( always so fashionable n can bake good cupcakes n spaghetti, yumssss)

priyalji ( i love you haha. why laaa u quit sam? ape ni! slap youu , loves)

emily er (evil twin! we are born on the same day n i nvr would have thought tht i would find someone so alike me, the things we think about all the same! ): ill miss you so much. T.T

yee aun ( dear dear, my awesome SS partner! without you i hv no one to SS with. n u are smart i can see tht u can be super successful in the future! pls be with me next year, clean up n cook for me! haha i will give you LOVE n hugs in return. hee i love youu )

penny ( we got close since we are the only ones always going eca n u know so much about me. n i love sharing everything with you, u hv a different opinion in everything, its surprising yet knowlegeble! i love you. come aussie k! n pls keep in touch i'll miss youuu)

n yeahh i love youu all ):
please remember me i know i will
u guys gave me memories tht i will not forget.
picture day, raptor watch, sam fiesta,lunch breaks, rushing to class all the time, experiments, assignments, tests, flash mob, sampat talking , many many more....


n to my dearest TDC members, thank you for everything i love you all. you all thought me how to be confident n dance which i will never do cause i feel i am always cacat in my movements, pariah moments that i will always treasure, the sweat n tears n those never ending laughters. thank you all, ian, alex, gosu, nicholas, audrey, chia sern, penny, ken ming, yee fai, chuah, KL, sherlin, david, machi, iylia, emica, geraldine, sheng, irene and many many more. thank you all

xoxo,
joee

he's mine! which part of ur tiny brain don't understand THAT!? he's just MINE!
MINEEEEEE. DAMN IT! stop acting fake all.. go awayy youuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!! i swear if i see you now i'll so confront YOU! i'll not let anything or anyone take ANYTHING OR ANYONE from ME! NEVER! GO N DIEEEEEE

holidays are finally here.

no more exams

no more assignments

no more stress

but somehow i know this will not last

i still have to study this holidays i guess.=(

but my lazy bum is real lazy to get up n going.

been watching ''xia yi zhan xing fu'' this few days..

super nice.

anyways,i feel like saying something.

people come n go

but feelings and the truth will last forver

its a wonder how people change in less than a month time

more n more secrets hidden

no more sharing

no more spontaneous outings

well maybe still..some..once in a while.

but it doesn't feel the same.

first year without something which may not seem to be anything important to others.

but it is to me.

its okay.

maybe ur busy

but it makes me feel forgotten,

used

and not appreaciated.

thought we were best of friends.

i hope we still are.

i do miss you.

please come back

and i dont like that fella.

sorry but yea..too bossy..

grr..go away.

i used to have this super duper good gf.

well it was my first n the best

we grew apart

she left because she got scholarship.

=(

we call each other everyday

she tells me she miss me

n she loves me

comes to my hse

teach me to ride a bike(which i still don't know how)

watch movie with my family

laugh with me

always there for me when i needed someone

hugs me all the time

my fault.

i didn't know how to appreciate her.

my mistake

no use crying over spilled milk

but i still think about those times.

wonder if she does too.

(call me lesbian, but she's still the best)

its been a long time since i've been here.
its currently 1.59am. couldnt do my maths.
mid terms are next week
i wish people knew how i feel.
how i am.
how i truly am.
do you even care?
do you still mind me being sad?
i hate to beg for ur sympathy.

days pass by so fast.
can't believe this is how it would end.
i really miss those times.
u changed.
not me.
but instead i am the one suffering.
living in the pass memories i may be...
but at least i know i am right.
i am real.
i am not to be questioned.
blamed.
shouted at.
especially in public.
i have feelings too.

CAN U HEAR ME.
I HAVE FEELINGS.
i am not cold blooded like you. and i will never be.
i still care.


i wish upon the stars tonight.
i will be happy again.
but i will not forget you.
nor forgive what u did.
i want u to undo ur mistake
i'll wait.


please don't hurt me on my birthday.
u promised.
i believe you.
i still do.

college has been tough and real tiring..
results are bad.all half percentage only. so not the jo ee i know.
so not used to the exams..its like i cannot do them.
sigh..i really need to buckle up and also to fix relationships..

i love you.
yes you.
its you.
forever i will.

ESL, CHEM & ECONOMICS TEST tmr...well its today to be exact..
its currently 3am...don't think i'm sleeping tonight..just finished my chem...economics not touched yet...OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!

=(
i wanna get my grades back up.
all these exams making me feel real bad about myself.
feels dumb and useless..sigh..

joee bought helium balloon today.wrote wishes on it and let it go.
jo ee is at kfc now.for the air con.
jo ee did not sleep well for 2 days.
jo ee is feeling super hot and grumpy this two days.
this is because......

ITS CHINESE NEW YEAR!
she's at her dad's hometown...kamparrr....
and its a super hot place with very little greens.
and she has to sleep on the floor with no bed at all..
and feed mosquitoes every night.
not only that, aunts can't stop blabbering midnight and fyi
they wake up at 4 something every night.
plus ppl come over to visit starting at 5 in the morning..
how can i possibly sleep?
even after taking a strong dose of running nose meds still can't sleep.how horrible is that?!
but stilll...its chinese new year laaah!
and i play mahjongg!!
heee

gtg..
taa=)