a sign.

i thought all was great
i thought all was well
i thought everything was fine
until i saw that..

is it true what u said?
every single word seems to hurt so much.
more than u can ever imagine.
i guess it was my fault.
all mine from the start.
tell me to stop this then i really will.
just tell me now.
''what was that about?''
''what is it about?''

i never stopped thinking,
i fell asleep holding 'it' in my hands,
i tried to stop thinking,
because u told me to.
i stopped crying because
u don't want me to.
i promised to be strong because
....u want me to.
n maybe that dream in the morning meant something,
something that i thought was actually nothing.
i was wrong.so wrong..it was a sign.
sign that u will leave..
but not quietly please..
not now please..


i am truly sorry.
so sorry that there is nothing more i can do.
tell me what is it about?
what is it and how do u think?
i don't know.
i really don't.
i want to understand but i don't know how.
please tell me.



*i hate what u said*